"I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
Theyre quite aware of what theyre going through"
-david bowie, changes
"maybe if adley doesn't get drunk and wake up next to a human's turd every once in a while the terrorists HAVE won. i don't wanna live in a world like that."
-nick serduletz
this may come as a shock to some, and some have seen it coming for a while im sure. but this weekend at the age of 23, i drank alcohol for the first time in my life. i've never been intoxicated before (except maybe on codein in grade 11), i was defenitely interested in seeing what that state was like.
i've been becoming really critical of using the label of "edge" as an identifier. realising that that isnt really as important to me anymore as it used to be. i felt as though if i tried alcohol or drugs that i wouldn't be myself anymore. it was so deeply engrained that after just drinking a little bit i was saying to myself, almost out loud "alright, you're still you right??? you still got tailslides on lock right??? yup, still got noseslide pullovers too..."
when i first thought about giving it a shot a few months ago, all the con's were about the way i thought people would think of me and all the pro's were about how i would feel mentally about myself for letting go. so it became obvious that it would be more healthy mentally if i free'd myself from the pressures i'd placed on my own shoulders.
i am no longer a pillar.
saturday august 12th 2006
jimbo
john smalls
the vandal(s twelve year old brother)
B came over and took me to a cool ass skate spot. i had skated it years ago with derry asnd i was psyched to go film tricks that he did way back for a part im makin right now... derry rules, je me souviens.
night life
sunday august 13th 2006
i've always thought jimbo was really handsome. and theres a certain look he gets when he's really pushed himself that makes him even more attractive. a certain humbled look, i kinda got to capture that today.
lambro!
tristin was in town... it's been too long...
went and saw "metal: a headbanger's journey". the strangler bro's were there.
blade
monday august 14th 2006
sarah invited me to come to YAR (youth activist retreat) this year. i've never been and it sounded like alot more fun than pretending to cut grass all week, so i accepted her ofer. i had no idea it was going to be so fucking rad...
the lady who made it all possible!
andy was thinkin about tenting but realised that it was counter-revolutionary so he ended up sleeping in the schoolhouse. thanks for the help anyways.
spoons and knives are also counter-revolutionary.
lindsay was driving a lamborghini filled with techmology
how bro is this room?
shalynn picked some purple peppers. she was responsible for keepin our bellies full and did a kickass job. basically all i did all week was eat amazing food and learn about how i sometimes act like a real jackass... and drank alot of orange drank.
nightime photo shred
tuesday august 15th 2006
tracks...
i had an opportunity to do a tattoo, and was excited to use the handle method explained on fecal recently...
wednesday august 16th 2006
mark biked two hundred and five kilometres before 1pm...
my zine making posse was in full effect by this point!
cam
sarah
jolene
post-zinemaking we went for an adventure
life
death
which side are you on...
thursday august 17th 2006
i think i had my camera set funny, so sorry jolene that your skin looks kinda funny coloured
friday august 18th 2006
oatmeal and raisins and toast with BP+J, just like back home...
last day, mailboxes were full
vegan angst was being unleashed
thats it folks, back on the bus, back to consequential living...
one of my new favourite photos from my digital rig
straight to the print shop
the last free meal ticket...
we went and saw snakes on a plane... i really have no idea what to say about it... go see it i guess... its insane...
friday august 19th
even though i was totally exhausted from the week, i went to portage la prarie to do some skateboard demo'ing for steakheads in board shorts with their shades dangling off their necks like beards...
cainer switch lip to switch
me, casper fakie
jimbo, switch tre maybe? i dunno, tyspace blogged it...
cain, ollie fakie
the new face of wreck posse!
insane broment!
it was beggin for it... vandal just had to step to the plate.
"i did the wieve blog thing" -rosie
the wieve blog thing is when you sneak a photo of yourself giving the finger onto my camera without my knowing.
we went sorta street skating, the platform is the illest junk jam park ever! the setting was so perfect and it was so hot, we had gangstarr blastin out the boombox, it seemed like the perfect time, so i decided that once i landed the back fiver across the pit i'd slam tyspace's beer, four tries later, the deed was done, a new page turned...
i dunno who drew this but its funny as hell
tyspace didnt have his camera around so even though he was shootin, wrecblog gets exclusive rights to my coming out...
i went to the social, but i was kinda over it, so i went for a lil' walk...
sunday august 20th
my camp ground, when i woke up i found that i had chosen to camp out about two feet from a human's turd, bummed...
meanwhile at the hotel
we had about the worst breakfast possible... it was absolutely wretched to the point that it was embarassing that i ate anything at all...
sunday august 20th
this is the second CD steven has ever owned. how legit is that??? but no bohemian rhapsody... denied!
sorry mom, i had to post this...
i'd also like to mention that i've been feeling really close to so many of my friends lately, new and old. i feel like i've been overloaded with intimacy in so many parts of my life lately that i'm a little overwhelmed. but please talk to me about it if you feel like it.
and also, mom, i would like for you to know that i didnt go overboard or anything, i didnt get beligereant or anything... and it was a really positive experience for me.
deco's
mementos
tracks
jimbo and the freeze
